Showing posts from May, 2013

The gift not taken

Her room is nestled to the right side at the end of the long corridor.  I walk the length of rooms, passing by all those who lay sick and dying.  This place houses broken hearts, one after another, all waiting for some miracle to rescue.

We wouldn't know she was sick if we glanced quickly upon her.  Except for hair thinned away by the harsh stroke of chemo, she was the picture of health.  The outside often tells a story different from what is kept hidden away.

Her smile spreads when I enter and we talk of her upcoming day, her needs.  We touch carefully on her illness and how it has nibbled away at the insides.  She knows what the tests show and how that dreaded disease is spreading further into the delicate parts.

She is fighting and praying she tells me, a warrior in her own story.  I am her helper, her healer and as I listen to her speak brave I feel the gentle request move upon me.  I am meant to pray for her.

I well know how to manipulate words on page, but the tongue has nev…

To my mother

My name was Daniel, though for many years I had no idea.  I remember reading the card Dad had given you before he took a trip to Israel.  It was his love on page written out for you, the children, and to me, Daniel.  At the time, I felt that I had discovered a secret scandal that perhaps you had given away one of my siblings.  I can hardly stop the teasing with you and Dad being so sure there was a boy growing that womb round.

And on that day in April when I had finally stretched you thin and there was no other way to go but out, you saw me for what I was.  Children have a way of changing your plans.

I wonder now, how long I was swaddled in that blue and red blanket with the little men in bicycles waiting for a name.  I wonder, did your cheeks burn red when Grandpa voiced his dissatisfaction and likened my new title to a horse?  I wonder if you cared what anyone thought at all when you stood firm.

You've done a lot of standing in your life.  Always dreaming for us, fighting for us…